Recently I was told that I lack confidence and that piece of advice, however well-intentioned it was really hurt – because my blog has taught be to be confident with my own story, who I am, what I do and what I have.
While I thought about hiding this non-aesthetically pleasing stuff from my blog and social media channels (because in the virtual world, life is good, we are happy and everything is going well), it’s a reminder that we all have bad days!
So after a few tears and hugs from H this weekend, in my most frustrated moment, I flopped down on to the couch to watch ‘I Feel Pretty’ on NetFlix. It was just me and Amy Schumer heart-to-heart on this journey – together!
For anyone who hasn’t seen this yarn, it’s a Hollywood movie about female body image. Amy Schumer (Renee) stars as a normal-looking lass, who, after a bump on the head in a spin class believes she’s a world-class hottie. This leads to some funny dancing and striking thoughtfulness.
Renee looks at herself in the mirror. She doesn’t say anything, but it is clear what she is thinking. It’s a scene we all know — facing your reflection, having no confidence.
I know it so well that lately, as I head through my early forties, I avoid looking at my reflection at all. That’s not easy to admit either. I know I have many valuable qualities than just my looks. I am a successful PR Manager and full-time midlife mum.
And yet, I worry that when people look at me, all they see is my awful teeth because I’m scared of the dentist after having a bad experience.
The message behind “I Feel Pretty” is important. Renee wants women to feel “empowered to live up to their full potential” — to not be held back by the fear of being perceived as fat or ugly.
I’d like to believe – and I do – that my professional training, life experience and my degree have armed me with the tools to survive in this world. So I certainly won’t be carrying a white flag around with me or surrendering any time soon – that I am confident of!